Food is energy.
Food is delicious.
Food is the root of all evil.
Food is a dirty word.
Food is necessary.
These are statements that I battle with. Often. Food should be energy for me. However, I like to snack, and not always healthy snacks. I really like food!
What kills me is that there are skinny people who really like food. How fair is that?!? The simple answer is that it’s not fair. People are built and process food differently. Sometimes, it’s so hard to accept that.
So, I’m battling with snacking. I’m probably being harder on myself than I should be, but I’m battling with snacking. I don’t even think it’s that I’m hungry all the time. I’m not. I’m trying to drink tons of water to feel full, but then again, maybe I don’t need to feel full. Sometimes, feeling full is uncomfortable. I’m kind of bummed because I had gotten to the point where I didn’t feel that food was my enemy. How did I even get back to feeling like that? *sigh*
So, what am I going do about it? I’m going take it one meal, maybe even once snack, one choice at a time. I’m also going to make myself understand that it’s ok to feel a little “empty.” I’m going to keep good snacks in the house. Wait, I’m also going to say that there are no bad snacks as long as you consume the suggested serving.
Beating myself up has never worked. It’s just depressing. When I decided that working out needed to be a priority, I finally did it! Now, the next step is feeling good about my food choices. Let me clarify…..I don’t feel BAD about all of my food choices. I make great food choices sometimes. I think when it comes to the holidays, it’s hard to have healthy options when you’ve always had the not so healthy options on the table all of your life.
I’m going to get through this part too. I think I’ve just had one too many I-feel-fat-bloated-and-gross-days lately. No one said fitness journeys were easy. Blogging helps. Thank you for reading.