So, I had to write late tonight because my mind has been full of many things. The one thing that keeps playing in my mind is my weight loss. It has become a visible, tangible thing to me now. You know how you see yourself everyday, so you don’t necessarily notice the changes? Well, that was me for a long time. I mean, my clothes felt looser, but just a little. I felt lighter, but just a little. The scale went down, but just a little.
THEN, people started commenting, and I started to notice. My clothes were getting looser. Much looser. Items of clothing that previously made me look like a busted can of biscuits now didn’t make me look that way. I was having to look in the recesses of my closet to find things I hadn’t worn in ages. Hell, I just had my own private fashion show!
Please know that I’m still not used to the weight loss, and I’m not sure why. I like it and know that I can attribute it to AIP. I want it to continue, but I am honestly scared that the weight will come back. Now, the level headed part of me knows that if I continue AIP because it’s better for me, I’ll keep the weight off. It’s just been so long since I’ve been able to lose weight, and it makes me nervous and exhilarates me at the same time. Does that make sense?
You know what I saw today? My collarbone! Why is that so exciting you ask? It used to be my favorite part, then it disappeared.
My health and weight loss journeys are far from over, but I am happy with my progress thus far. Final words? Own whoever you are because are worth it!